a brief discussion of how my ability works
Many people consider the ability to communicate with those who have physically left this world, to be a gift. While it is an extremely special part of my life in which I realize I am lucky to experience, in many ways it has been a very heavy burden. A struggle I have dealt with since the early age of 3.
I have struggled my whole life with anxiety. I would avoid busy stores and restaurants. I wouldn't go to the movies because I knew I wouldn't be able to enjoy it. Everywhere I went, I would have images and thoughts cross my mind. Thoughts and images that did not belong to me. I knew things I “shouldn’t” know. I knew things about people some of their closest friends and family members didn’t know. I would leave the store or wherever I was, with so much guilt. I felt as if I had failed because I didn’t pass on a message that could have been life changing and healing for that stranger. The anxiety was almost debilitating for many years. I struggled with not being able to separate “reality” from these messages I was receiving. It wasn’t until I was pregnant with my first daughter I forced myself to gain the ability to put up the invisible walls… the bubble that protects me. I discovered I CAN turn the ability off, or at least force it into the background to the point it does not have to consume my life.
How do I receive these messages?
Much of my communication comes through in the form of words. I say I “hear”, but I don’t hear these words with my ears. They simply come into my thoughts. Many times they’re things that make no sense to me personally, but hold meaning to those that need to hear them.
Sometimes I “see” what I can only describe as a memory of a photo. A clear image imprinted in my thoughts. A lot of times this is how I can describe the person I am communicating with, and other times the purpose of this is to bring up a favorite photo or moment of someone
Rarely, but sometimes I can give you a name. Names often come to me as thoughts, but as if I am almost hearing them being spoken.
When it comes to determining how someone has passed, many times this comes to me by experiencing pain in that area. For example, I had a reading today with a woman who passed of a brain tumor. The majority of the reading I experienced a pounding headache. During another reading, a soul had passed from cancer of the bowel, where my stomach felt like it was in knots.
Many times I feel the emotions of those I am communicating with, including happiness, peace, guilt, sadness, hope, and so many more. Because of this I am able to portray and explain what these souls are trying to tell their loved ones.
Very rarely, I have actually been able to see what seems to be a physical form of the soul reaching out to me. When this happens it often feels like I am standing in extreme fog. making the image not perfectly clear, but to where I can make out enough identifying information to describe them.
"How do the deceased reach out to you and how do you determine who to talk to?"
There are often times, especially in readings several souls that step forward. I usually can gather enough identifying information for each of them to confirm that their soul is there, is ok, and is willing to reach out. However, there is usually one that has the most to say and pass on. This soul often 'hijacks' the reading, which sounds bad, but in my experience this person has information that my clients need the most to find peace with their passing or whatever they are currently experiencing.
This sensitive ability seems incredibly difficult to explain and put in to words. For now, I will do the best I can. If you have a question, ask! I will do my best to answer it. You may post questions in the comments or email them to firstname.lastname@example.org
Author: Ashlee St.Denis
Medium and creator of Spiritual Realm- Ashlee St.Denis. Featuring special entries from guests.